HELLO!

So, I am very happy. And I'm hoping it will last. I just wish I could be happy forever. I really do. Most people do, but some people just don't like to be happy. Some people just think it's beautiful to be sad. And maybe sometimes it is. But not when you think that way.

 Anyway. I saw Sweeney Todd last night with one of my best friends, MaryPaige. She was kicked out of the show because she was really sick. She has--I hope I spell this right--juvenile fibromyalgia. She was going though some rough stuff. And on top of that, she has autism from mercury poisoning from a dirty syringe, so she's deathly afraid of needles. I mean, REALLY afraid. She's homeschooled only because she doesn't want to get the shots necessary for high school. Pain is magnified like x10 for her. So is pleasure, but I didn't want to say that because it sounds so sexual. I hate the word 'pleaure'. Ew. 
 Anywhizzy, so we saw Sweeney Todd together last night, with her dad--who's very intimidating with his jail-bird look and pierced ears-- and my stepdad and my boyfriend's dad. Since I was talking about MaryPaige, I might as well tell you my boyfriend's name. His name is Troy (: He was fantastic, as usual. I think one of the greatest things about Troy is that he doesn't need to be in the spotlight onstage. I actually think he doesn't really like the limelight, to be honest. He was in the back a lot, and I leaned over to MaryPaige--who is also very good friends with Troy--and complained about it. She nodded and said, "It's because the producers don't like him." She didn't say it snottily, if you can imagine. She said it disdainfully. She's disgusted with the producers and director of Sweeney. It made me really mad, but I didn't know if she was just saying that because that's what she had gathered from his constantly being in the back, or if she had heard it firsthand or what, so I'm not sure if I believe it. I just can't see why they wouldn't like Troy. He's very professional, and he's a terrific actor and singer. He doesn't over-do anything. And the kid who played Toby was just so smug. Ergh. he wasn't even that great. My good friend Bobby, who's in Sweeney as well, would have done so much better. Troy would've done better, too. I admit, he played a crazy man VERY well at the end. It was hilarious. MaryPaige and I were cracking up. She thought it was sexy. She's a very strange girl, and that's what I love about her haha.
OH, BOBBY. So Bobby played a wolf-boy. And in a show I had done earlier this year, we had this great choregrapher named Randy. He's so cool! Well, he was Bobby's 'master'. It wasn't as disturbing as Troy and MaryPaige made it sound, but it was still creepy. The costumes were simply amazing, it had a circus theme, so everyone was over the top with their costumes. Brilliant. I was a little disappointed they didn't do the accents, but I suppose that would have been harder? I don't know.
At the end I got to talk to Troy, Bobby, MaryPaige, and our little friend Greg, who annoyed Troy and Bobby like crazy haha. He is a little annoying, but he's very amusing and I just can't not like him. Greg's mom is the epiphany of nice. She is literally the sweetest person I've ever met, so is Greg's dad. The whole family...wow. They're the kindest people I've ever met. They really are.
Well, I had an amazing time and my stepdad and Troy's dad really hit it off and were all buddy-buddy the whole night, which I thought was really cool. MaryPaige's dad was really anti-social...I felt sort of bad for him. But it wasn't a meek kind of anti-social, it was sort of a 'I-Don't-Have-To-Prove-Myself-To-You' anti-social. I didn't get any alone time with Troy, which I didn't mind all that much. I kept wanting to hold his hand or make those sweet little gestures, you know what I mean. Instead of a pat on the shoulder, you brush your thumb across his cheek, stuff like that. I honestly don't know what held me back. I think maybe it was because Bobby and Greg were there. I'm not sure. But we were texting when we left, and he said he wished we had had some alone time to "talk, and, kiss". And I didn't know he ever wanted any. But, like, I've never made out with anyone /: So I'm a litte worried. Not too much, but just a little. Troy and I aren't the sort of couple who are all over each other, which I really like. I hate overzealous public displays of affection. It's just, like we know we love each other. I don't need his arm around my waist to feel loved. I honestly don't even like that stuff. I like holding hands. That's the sort of thing I'm into. I'm not sure if it makes me wierd or not, because I've never met anyone else who felt that way.
Well, I get to see Troy again tomorrow, because my mom and I are going to Sweeney's opening night with his family. We're going to try to sneak away and have some of that, ahem, 'alone time'. It made my stomach flip when I was thinking about it last night haha.
Last thing I'm going to say, because I know this note is pretty long hahah. The Sweeney Todd with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter is nothing compared to the live opera version. Helena didn't do Miss Lovette justice, but I don't think that was her fault. It was supposed to be a dark movie. There's a little more humor, though extremely morbid, in the stage version.

"Good morning, starshine! The earth says, "Hello!"
So, I got the bird today :D His name is Milo. I suggested it, and my brother was so happy that he decided Milo was a good name, although now he gets upset whenever the bird comes to me and says, "NO! HIS NAME ISN'T MILO ANYMORE! IT'S WOLVERINE!" Hahahaha. Milo creeps me out when he fluffs up his feathers DX I guess I'm just not a bird girl. I like cats :3 Haha, we have a cat and a bird. Great combination. I guess technically, the cat is mine and the bird is my brother's, but eh. My cat's name is Moxie :D Moxie and Milo, haha. Two M's...ironic. Anyway, now I'm watching Atlantis: The Lost Empire, haha. The lead character's name is Milo :D I hate when people do cartoons and then don't make the characters specifically right-handed or specifically left-handed. Like, one minute they're writing on a chalk board with their left hand, and then eating soup with their right. And then you read the character bio on Wikipedia or something and it describes them as ambidextrious. Ergh. x__x" Anyway...I get to see my boyfriend tomorrow! <3
SO happy.
goodnight moon;

Hey all (:

So, uhm...I found out someone vey close to me tried weed. I don't exacty want to say WHO, because...well, it's horrible enough that I'm writing this stupid blog entry about them, I don't want to say anything else that isn't necessary. I really shouldn't be writing this on here, but I figure this is a blog, and like I said in my first post, it's a place for me to make sense of everything. My friend didn't like it, they said it tasted like "skunk ass peanut butter" hahahah. And that they would have stopped even if they DID like it. Because they knew it was wrong. So, I'm not worried or upset or anything. Not even disappointed. Everyone tries weed at some point, right? It's not it's crack or anything. So it's like, you know, whatever. But then I was on facebook and my friend's status update said, "I'm ready to try new experiences." THAT worried me. A little bit. I'm hoping they'll call or text or something later today /: They didn't buy the weed though. They were out with two of their friends and their friends pulled it out and were like, "Wanna smoke?" and my friend said, "Well, okay." Anyway, the point is, I'm not mad, or sad, or anything like that. I've thought about trying it myself, but I don't think I ever could. I'd be so disappointed in myself. And what if I ended up liking it? I really don't think weed is bad in general. It's all-natural and everything, and it doesn't kill brain cells...it just makes you real mellow. Or really paranoid, I've heard from other people who've actually been high.